So truth is it has been a really long time since i have posted anything, but i am quite depressed. I have gained weight, and have even gone up a cup size! (now a proud 34C!) which isn't that bad, but I can't let my self continue down this path and gaining weight. I started looking past what others thought of me and as my friend suggested, "live a little." So I started liking the freedom of indulging. Bad idea.
I thought maybe I was done trying to be perfect, and told my self that I didn't care what others thought of me. But deep down i knew i was just excusing the frucking fat slob i am becoming. I HAVE TO CHANGE.
I just need support right now because I feel like my world is coming together but at the same time im falling apart. I got a dance scholarship to the University I wanted to go to, and I am very thrilled! I will be going across the country and I want to start new.
But I can't go looking like the shit i look like right now. I am too ashamed to state my weight. But it is going down. Sorry for this rather depressing post, but i will try to do better =]
~ a depressed Kelsey