Just found an amazing website!

I just found an amazing website with lots of ana/mia music, and support, great place! http://letters-from-ana.webs.com/ I just signed up! =) You can find me, just search Kelsey.

Anyways, here's some summer thinspo. =)





 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

No I have not died.

So truth is it has been a really long time since i have posted anything, but i am quite depressed. I have gained weight, and have even gone up a cup size! (now a proud 34C!) which isn't that bad, but I can't let my self continue down this path and gaining weight. I started looking past what others thought of me and as my friend suggested, "live a little." So I started liking the freedom of indulging. Bad idea.

 I thought maybe I was done trying to be perfect, and told my self that I didn't care what others thought of me. But deep down i knew i was just excusing the frucking fat slob i am becoming. I HAVE TO CHANGE.

I just need support right now because I feel like my world is coming together but at the same time im falling apart. I got a dance scholarship to the University I wanted to go to, and I am very thrilled! I will be going across the country and I want to start new.

But I can't go looking like the shit i look like right now. I am too ashamed to state my weight. But it is going down. Sorry for this rather depressing post, but i will try to do better =]

~ a depressed Kelsey  

So i did eat

.. not sure how much. I was too cold this morning to weigh myself. I broke my fast yesterday afternoon. I have to go to bed, but i can not figure out how to get the pictures attached from my desktop to my blog =o Help anyone?

133!

Thats right i am 133! I have lost 6 lbs in 4ish days and it really makes me quite happy! =D I have had no solid food other then literally a taste (30 grams) of my dads homemade pumpkin pie and that was yummy =) I had some honey too, but i dont know if that counts. I only had a very small amount. I am starting to wonder why i even eat at all anyhow! Gum is a lifesaver and my favs are the EXTRA ones that taste like desert because when im craving something sweet it works =). OR i will have a spoon of splenda. I did have a little powdered creamer in my coffee this morning but i am quite proud of my self =) I am proud of myself!

I had the weirdest dream last night after i finally fell asleep..it was my sisters 14th bday and i was eating all of her cake. I woke of freaked out that i would gain weight.....then when i realized it was jsut i dream you have no idea how thankful i was. Seriously.

I have a research paper due so i have to go, but i would really love to hear from you guys on how you guys are doing so please email or comment! =)

lots of luv!
~Kelsey

↑ anything is better then actually eating it

Im back!!

So sorry life has been hectic lately-and i have not had the chance to blog =) Here are my excuses:
1) best friend who i have not seen in 4 years came back to visit
2) I preformed in my dance shows
3) i have had hardly any time
4) i was binge eating.

But no more. Im on my second day of the master cleanse-if you dont know what that is http://themastercleanse.org/, it lemons, maple syrup (i use sugar free as it has 20 cals instead of the regular 220), and pepper. Not bad really and i am now dancing from 2- 9:15 straight on Thursdays and so i hope that is helping. I have gained weight the past month and last night after i had already had loads to drink i was a fricking 139 ( shoot me) and an hour ago i was 137, so some progress has been made. I plan to stay on this cleanse till thanksgiving where i will be eating only a little bit. But already i feel so much better! I am going to take a picture every night so by the end of the week my progress will be officially documented. =)

luv you all
~Nicole

I hope you all are doing good- stay strong ladies!!

Here is some thinspo =)

Idea...

So I have this inspiration to take a picture of me in my fat everyday, and hopefully it will be motivating....today was not a very good day- had pasta, a cookie, some malt balls....ugh ugh ugh. Im going to try to liquid fast the next 2-3 days to clean my system... debating putting before and after pics up when im done...I know im really FAT right now, but im about to have some laxitives and im going to do a ab work out and see how it goes =)

luv you all! ♥
~Kelsey

--btw i have red hair so this is some of what i WISH i looked like... ='(

=)

So i have to be fast, but when i woke up the next morning, i was 133!!!! YAY!!!! but I have eaten normally (had a slice of pizza-its crap i know but it would have been awkward if i didnt) and other things.... feeling fat right now, but im going for a liquid fast tomorrow, and ill see what happens . Good luck ladies =)