So i did eat

.. not sure how much. I was too cold this morning to weigh myself. I broke my fast yesterday afternoon. I have to go to bed, but i can not figure out how to get the pictures attached from my desktop to my blog =o Help anyone?

133!

Thats right i am 133! I have lost 6 lbs in 4ish days and it really makes me quite happy! =D I have had no solid food other then literally a taste (30 grams) of my dads homemade pumpkin pie and that was yummy =) I had some honey too, but i dont know if that counts. I only had a very small amount. I am starting to wonder why i even eat at all anyhow! Gum is a lifesaver and my favs are the EXTRA ones that taste like desert because when im craving something sweet it works =). OR i will have a spoon of splenda. I did have a little powdered creamer in my coffee this morning but i am quite proud of my self =) I am proud of myself!

I had the weirdest dream last night after i finally fell asleep..it was my sisters 14th bday and i was eating all of her cake. I woke of freaked out that i would gain weight.....then when i realized it was jsut i dream you have no idea how thankful i was. Seriously.

I have a research paper due so i have to go, but i would really love to hear from you guys on how you guys are doing so please email or comment! =)

lots of luv!
~Kelsey

↑ anything is better then actually eating it

Im back!!

So sorry life has been hectic lately-and i have not had the chance to blog =) Here are my excuses:
1) best friend who i have not seen in 4 years came back to visit
2) I preformed in my dance shows
3) i have had hardly any time
4) i was binge eating.

But no more. Im on my second day of the master cleanse-if you dont know what that is http://themastercleanse.org/, it lemons, maple syrup (i use sugar free as it has 20 cals instead of the regular 220), and pepper. Not bad really and i am now dancing from 2- 9:15 straight on Thursdays and so i hope that is helping. I have gained weight the past month and last night after i had already had loads to drink i was a fricking 139 ( shoot me) and an hour ago i was 137, so some progress has been made. I plan to stay on this cleanse till thanksgiving where i will be eating only a little bit. But already i feel so much better! I am going to take a picture every night so by the end of the week my progress will be officially documented. =)

luv you all
~Nicole

I hope you all are doing good- stay strong ladies!!

Here is some thinspo =)

Idea...

So I have this inspiration to take a picture of me in my fat everyday, and hopefully it will be motivating....today was not a very good day- had pasta, a cookie, some malt balls....ugh ugh ugh. Im going to try to liquid fast the next 2-3 days to clean my system... debating putting before and after pics up when im done...I know im really FAT right now, but im about to have some laxitives and im going to do a ab work out and see how it goes =)

luv you all! ♥
~Kelsey

--btw i have red hair so this is some of what i WISH i looked like... ='(

Good day today!!!!

I am very sorry that my first post was so negative, but im here to be positive and give an update! I am actually 135 lbs, not 138 like i thought! =D YAY!!!! Still a long ways off, but i feel better =) My ultimate goal is 110 and so i only have 25 lbs to go =PP

so my food today (no laxatives today, giving my digestive system a break):

2 calcium chews 20 cal

rasins/crazins probably 200 cal =/

cup of lettuce w/splenda and lemon juice 20 cal

1/2 can tuna with BBQ sauce 80 cal

1 see's candy 80 cal =P

2 cat crackers 20 cal

a little milk in my coffee 30 cal

total = 450 ish. And i danced 6 hours today ♥

not bad =)

Just to clarify i am NOT able to throw up but i am quite fond of laxatives and exercise. But i am giving my body a break. I think i did ok on my health exam. Not sure yet.

I was just thinking how easy it is to give up, give up on yourself, on your body, but YOU are the one in charge, and you just need to teach your body who is boss. Even when you screw up its ok because there is tomorrow to get back on track. Stay strong! Here is some thinspo for you all =)

This is what i wish i looked like ↑

i want these legs!

perfection