Idea...

So I have this inspiration to take a picture of me in my fat everyday, and hopefully it will be motivating....today was not a very good day- had pasta, a cookie, some malt balls....ugh ugh ugh. Im going to try to liquid fast the next 2-3 days to clean my system... debating putting before and after pics up when im done...I know im really FAT right now, but im about to have some laxitives and im going to do a ab work out and see how it goes =)

luv you all! ♥
~Kelsey

--btw i have red hair so this is some of what i WISH i looked like... ='(

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So i have to be fast, but when i woke up the next morning, i was 133!!!! YAY!!!! but I have eaten normally (had a slice of pizza-its crap i know but it would have been awkward if i didnt) and other things.... feeling fat right now, but im going for a liquid fast tomorrow, and ill see what happens . Good luck ladies =)

Much better =)

I have fasted today-purty good! i weighed myself when i got back from dance today and (after having 2 litters of diet coke and lots of water, and i was only 135!!! it is still alot, but after my horrible binging episodes earlier this week im quite shocked!!! yay!!!!

How true this is!!!!

Sorry

Im sorry i have not posted. Sorry i have binged. Sorry im a freaking fat cow who can not be good. Im just a sorry mess. I have done nothing but binge and take laxatives all week and it has been really bad. And of course my dance studio had photo shoots for team this week and i look like a fat ass in them =P oh well. Im going for a fast tomorrow and i will let you know how it goes...
Am I the only one that gets triggered by breakfast cereals?! I am freaking obsessed with them! And they are so hi cal ='( I wish i was skinny. oh how i wish i was skinny.... So yeah i need to clean my system and not eat whatever the heck i want to. I need to be in control. I need to find time to work out. Dance doesn't count.
I feel like a failure right now.

On the bright side i got an A on my health test! yay!! I have the second part of my history exam on tuesday, and a math test, and I have a paper i am working on (my parents think that is what i am doing right now) due monday. One thing i am excited for is my healthy 2 day eating plan. Its at http://www.choosemyplate.gov/myplate/index.aspx and I am really excited to do it! My problem is i was not putting enough calories, but for my age/weight/exercise level/height i should have 2,400 calories!!!! what a joke!!!! =P Took me forever to find even 1,000 calories that met all the requirements. 
I am so scared to weigh myself but i promise i will on monday, and i will tell you. How I hope it is not 140.....

I will hopefully have a more positive post next time. Stay strong ladies!!

132.5!!!

Hello lovely people =) I weighed myself and i was 133.5 this morning and when i got back from dance I was 132.5! i lost a pound! I had some crazins, 4 egg whites, a slice of pizza (i ALMOST didnt eat it but t caved =P) some dried mango. Not sure how much but probably too much.

Im sure i will be more in the morning ='( anything would be better then what i have been in the past.... i really HOPE not


The other night i was talking to my little sister (almost 13) about different stuff from my health class, and she wanted to start to be healthy and so she has stated working out and is really careful about calories and what she eats...makes me wonder if she is getting that from me ore if she is getting an eating disorder too...she only had a tomato this morning and i woke up to my mom upset that she wouldn't eat a waffle (i talked her into saying that it wasnt that bad), saying "i will not let you get an eating disorder!" i wonder what would happen if she really knew what i eat....

Thinspo for you all :